Taiwanese fashion sales girls


It seems to be a custom in Taiwan that sales girls working in somewhat smaller fashion outlets and boutiques have to dress/style up - quite often actually wearing some of the items that this particular shop sells.

I think that somehow makes them to something like living mannequins. In addition to the actual clothes, often accompanied by very heavy makeup, high heels (maybe even platform heels). Very fascinating. In fact, they might be a bigger attraction than the actual shop.

And I honestly appreciate the amount of effort they put in their styling, especially if they are no natural beauties at all.

Pornography and my teenage years


On the weekend, I was attending the 3rd Porn Film Festival. One of the more impressive works presented there was the documentary "Jugend und Pornographie" (youth and pornography).

I think it is a valid subject. For my generation and later generations it is normal to grow up with pornography. I was online in BBS networks starting from the age of 10, and I was on the Internet when I was 15 (which, 15 years ago was really special, at least here in Germany). And of course, especially at that time, nobody really gave much thought about how to protect youngsters from the various X-rated material that was available online.

Since data transmission rates were still pretty low, most of the porn that I had at my hands was actual erotic stories. The kind of stuff that you can today still find on ASSTR. There were plenty of message boards in all networks (FIDO, Z-Netz, T-Netz, later Usenet) in both English and German, where people were hanging out and sharing the erotic stories that they've written themselves. Over the years, I collected more and more.

The only graphics you could find at those 2400bps times was 320x240, so not particularly detailed ;) But there already was a difference between scans of porn magazines, actual digital porn productions of commercial porn BBS's and the amateur porn community.

So starting at the age of 11 or 12, I was more or less regularly reading and watching pornographic material. It's obviously hard to judge what kind of influence this had on the development of my personality and sexuality. Obviously it has lead me to at least respect (or even appreciate) the many different forms of sexuality. Everyone has their own likes and dislikes, preferences, etc. I never had the feeling that it was wrong to use porn to get turned on, to derive sexual pleasure from it. Why would I? I was brought up in no religious tradition, and my parents are not particularly conservative, either.

Still, of course, I had to keep it all secret. My parents did definitely not like the idea (as I experienced later when they came to know that I had access to 'physical' porn). They never had (and still have not) any idea at which age I started watching porn, and to what extent I was collecting piles of it. That was one of the advantages if you were a computer nerd and your parents almost computer illiterate. Whatever you had on your computer without any hard evidence on paper or other physical media was absolutely secret. It is a personal computer, after all.

In any case, I think a documentary like the one shown at the festival is a first and humble attempt to start to get a discussion going. Today, every kid is on the Internet. Everyone can click "yes I am 18" and get access to porn. Only the most computer-illiterate kids will be deterred by 'parental filtering' software. They only catch what they know, and they only know the web, which contrary to many peoples' belief is only one particular part of the Internet.

So the fact is that today, more than ever before, youngsters are watching porn. No matter how much it is against the law, and no matter how much their parents try to prevent it. So we have a legal system, combined with ethical norms that are extremely out-of-sync with how reality actually looks like.

This has been going on for something like 10 to 15 now, and still there is no major public debate about this fact. Most parents either don't know or don't care. Or if they care, they are unable to do something about it. Or they feel embarrassed and rather look away because they don't know how what to do. The Kids will do what they want, but obviously not all of them are able to cope with what they see.

I see some analogies to other debates. Like the debate about first-person shooters (action games), where despite some claims not everyone who plays them will turn into an aggressive personality. Just like not everyone who smokes a joint here and there will become a major drug addict later in his life.

However, I do acknowledge the fact that there are some fragile kids that might not do well and that have not yet developed a strategy how to deal with this. Who do not know or learn that relationships can be based on love and emotion, rather than purely on sex. But then, do we try to (and fail anyway) protect them from porn, at the expense of delaying or holding back the sexual development of everyone else?

In any case, the current system of trying to protect teenagers by futile attempts to keep porn away from them is not working. It's not working for at least a decade, and nobody is proposing any real solution or even attempting a public debate about it.

Maybe it's a reflection on how little many people care about sexuality in general. If they deny themselves from exploring their sexuality freely (by religion, society, ethics, ...) why should a younger generation not be denied, too. *sigh*

About blow jobs


One thing that I never really mentioned so far on this blog are my thoughts on blow jobs. That might relate to the fact that they're something so completely normal to me, that I sometimes forget that for some people it is quite a big deal ;)

In any case. As I happen to be a dominant and slightly sadistic male, I obviously like the concept of sexual activity in which the female partner can show her devotion and submission, and where the male (that would be me) derives more pleasure than she does.

I like the concept of declaring the frequent performance of blow jobs as her "duty". A good girl has to make her master happy. The most important part of her master (for her) is his cock. Thus, she has to do whatever it takes to make him happy, to provide his cock with the maximum possible pleasure.

And what would be better than the devoted and extensive licking and sucking of his cock? Up to the point of gagging (and beyond, see my blog post about deep throating and deep throat training). It's such a great practical demonstration about how important it is for her to please him.

And then, obviously, this raises the question of what to do with the cum. To me, it is obvious: Good girls (aka good sluts) have to swallow. Yes, I think safe sex is important. But I am considering a situation where two responsible non-promiscuous adult people interact with each other after having done thorough STD checking. I like to consider the swallowing as integral part of her "blow job duty" (see above).

This also has the practical advantage that there is no spill. It's very clean, can be performed everywhere, no need for any napkins, no spills on either her or my outfit. Very convenient :)

For that latter reason, I also like her to 'clean off' the cock after vaginal sex. Isn't that much more sexy than using some kind of cloth or napkin?

Perverted terminology - on the use of language


As D/s is something that happens a lot in the mind, rather than the body, language and more specifically the use of language plays an important role in it. Our thoughts are always connected to language, after all.

One of the reasons why I actually like to call myself a pervert is the actual perverted (in the meaning of twisted, distorted, skewed) terminology.

So if society has a certain norm on what constitutes a good girl, then I have a definition of it that is very twisted, and probably closer to the opposite of the mainstream definition. Typically, society would consider the following attributes in line with their definition of a good girl: decent, chaste, monogamous, heterosexual.

My definition of a good girl is in line with my perverted values and norms, like sexually open-minded in any possible way, bisexual, a desire to show herself off, strong sex drive, vain.

So just like in this case, many terms have a totally different definition to me than to other people. Somebody who becomes part of my world will inevitably also learn about this perverted terminology. Thus, a woman entering my world can still strive to be a good girl, just with a very different definition of what constitutes 'good'.

Recognition in D/s relationships


There is one aspect that by now I have realized as particularly important for a D/s relationship: The recognition feedback loop - at least that's how I like to call it.

What I mean by that is a (strong) need for the submissive part to gain recognition by the dominant part. The [knowing] dominant part ensures that such need is satisfied by

  • making sure the submissive knows what kind of behavior is valued by the dominant, and
  • actually granting that recognition if the submissive part actually behaves accordingly

I believe especially the latter part is important. The submissive part might feel insecure about what she (forgive my ignorance, I am always thinking in maledom/femsub terms) does, and whether it is really the right thing to do. So if she doesn't get encouragement by recognition, she might try something else or simply give up at some point.

The 'feedback loop' (technically speaking probably rather a feed-forward loop) probably gets into place if the desire for recognition becomes a need for recognition, and is strong enough for the submissive to go very far in order to obtain that very recognition.

So initially, maybe much simpler things (actions/behavior, whatever is desirable) result in the desired amount/level of recognition, but over time those things become much more normal for both sides, and thus sub needs to do more or other desirable things in order to gain the same amount of recognition than before.

There is a lot of difference in how much recognition a person needs. Some people base a lot of their self-esteem on the amount of recognition they get from other people (maybe even only close people). Obviously for this kind of person, the mechanics as outlined above should work even better.

Discovering FetLife


Yesterday, by reference of a friend, I first encountered the FetLife BDSM/Fetish online community.

I'm really happy to see something like that. A community full of real people. No commercial interest whatsoever. Done by the kinky community for the kinky community. Definitely very refreshing, compared to all the commercial crap like alt.com and it's various incarnations and imitators.

This community site feels like it could become something like a new online home for me. I'm extremely excited about making many new interesting contacts.

Let's just hope the people behind that site will not be tempted to do a commercial sell-out. Sure, asking users to contribute back for operations and development of the site is fine. But please stay true to the "by the community, for the community" spirit.

I'm mentioning this here in a new "community" category of my blog, where I will probably deviate a bit from the self-centric view of the other sections, and introduce you to interesting places that I find on the net. Chances are high that if you like this blog, you will also like some of the places that I'll link to...